I’ve been in love with the same guy for over a year and a half, I met him at work and fell for him the first time I laid eyes on him. It felt like the perfect fairy tale. He was perfect, friendly, funny, sweet and kind. We got on like a house on fire.
Unfortunately, it wasn’t my fairy tale. Whilst I was falling for him more and more every week it turns out he was planning his wedding. He got married last January and I had to find out from another colleague, he wasn’t even going to tell me. I was heartbroken, I got home that night and cried myself to sleep.
For a few weeks afterwards things were stone cold between us, I could hardly look him in the eye, it hurt too much and he didn’t make an effort to patch things up. Eventually, we began talking again and my feelings returned with full force. We got closer and closer and unknowingly I was digging myself a deeper and deeper hole everyday that I couldn’t climb out of.
He became a confidante and a good friend, although my feelings for him never went away. I began to hate my job, my boss was rude and degrading to me and I didn’t enjoy being there anymore so I quit. It broke my heart to tell the man I love goodbye forever, especially because he never knew how I felt.
I thought that was it, but then he broke my heart a third time. When I told him I was leaving he told me he was sad because it was like he was losing a sister… yes, the man i’d been in love with for a year and a half thought of me as nothing more than a sister.
How many times can a guy break a girls heart?
Saying goodbye to the person you love is the hardest thing you have to do, especially when they don’t know how you feel. But you know that it’s for the best, there happiness comes first & even if they knew how much you cared for them it wouldn’t change a thing. He’s married and telling him would be the most selfish thing I’ve ever done. So I’m going to leave, a quick and clean goodbye, no emotion no expectations, just hoping that they live their life to the full and that they are happy. I’m walking away for good this time, I’m walking away for life. It’s the hardest thing I’ve had to do, but it had to be done.
I love you, I always have and I always will. Goodbye.